Well, I know this is not the most exciting blogging in the world. Far different from my norm. but I feel so different from the norm. Thanks to all you dear ones who have emailed to say you've kept me in your prayers the past week. It's been six days that I have felt this way.
Yesterday Dr. Rosemay (my doc) gave me a prescription at church to take care of this crazy breakout. It's almost gone. But my other symptoms remain and I am in a lot of discomfort. I'm going in to see her Wednesday if she can squeeze me in on the schedule which she always manages to do somehow... I'm rarely sick but when I am, she gives her pastor priority. I appreciate her for that and so much more.
I just can't keep feeling this way. I have been afraid to deal with this fully before Thursday -- I have to leave first thing that morning to speak at a conference in Orlando...the "Inspire" conference for women. I don't want anything to stand in the way of that. So why worry? Well, let's put it this way, because Rosemay is an excellent doctor. I know, I know that sounds totally weird. But here's the deal. I have only been seriously ill here once while living in Tampa, and what did she do? Basically sentenced me to a hospital bed ...for four days. I mean, she gave me no choice...she ordered me there. And there I stayed until she got to the bottom of my problem. Rosemay is a family doctor, also an internist. She'll find out what's wrong with you, whatever she has to do. After just 24 hours, I was sick of laying in the hospital, especially without my briefcase and my computer. :-) I said, "do I really have to stay here? Please, just release me...I have so much to do. She kept me there a few days. Then, I had to preach on Sat. She didn't want me to. I needed an operation asap. She finally agreed that if I would not eat a thing on Sat., only clear liquids, and take the medication she gave me, she'd allow it and wait til' Monday to operate. I obeyed. Got the operation Monday and all was well. But Rosemay...she's one tough cookie. If she didn't like what she saw, she'd keep me home from Orlando in a New York minute!!!
Rosemay doesn't play around. If she has an inkling that anything is wrong, she acts on it big time. As well she should, that's why she's the doc.
So here's the deal, I think I'm going to go see her Wed. and if I need some tests, set some up for Monday if possible.
I need to be sick like I need to bang my head against a wall. I have so much going on all the time. And to me nothing is more important than my family and the Kingdom. I try to ignore being sick. I rarely am, but when I am I try to just believe God to touch me and keep going. I truly believe in God's healing power. If that same spirit that raised Christ from the dead dwells in us...what happens? He will quicken our bodies, that's what the Word says, and I believe it. So I just quote that and move on. Sometimes that becomes difficult to just keep going if my prayer is not answered right away. And at times I need to use wisdom and in addition to quoting and praying, I need to make an appt. with Rosemay.
And something I'm learning through this week is that I need to RELAX more, not just my body but my mind...GIVE GOD THE CHURCH COMPLETELY (it's His anyway) and stop worrying so much about it, go to bed at a decent hour 99% of the time, stop answering work e-mails on my day off, take a day off once a week no matter what, make people respect my boundaries more, LET GO of things I can't control. There really IS a purpose to why I have felt bad the past week - for this if nothing else. More than anything I need to DEPEND ON GOD MORE . I've gotten so much better in the past eight years or so. Back about eight years ago I made a major change, but my work hours big time...(I still work a lot, but no where near what I used to - I was so far out of balance eight years ago, it was ridiculous. I needed an overhaul, and I got one. I started working a sane amount of hours, taking a day off, etc. Still even with that- I sometimes slip back and allow myself to skip a day off one week or a few weeks in a row because of pressing issues I justify it. Or, I allow people to cross my boundaries too much and don't take up for myself enough. I'm learning more about that. This past week is bringing me to a new understanding of what I need to do to make things better - a new level. Not work harder - but SMARTER. Be what I need to be even more by taking yet even better care of me to be the best for my husband, my family, my church, and everybody else.
Thank you, those of you friends reading, for continuing to pray for me. Specifically please pray for healing for me, and...for an incredible move of God at the Inspire Conference!!! I want to actually enjoy what God is doing, and not be sick anymore. The devil is such a liar, isn't he? I hate him.
Yesterday Dr. Rosemay (my doc) gave me a prescription at church to take care of this crazy breakout. It's almost gone. But my other symptoms remain and I am in a lot of discomfort. I'm going in to see her Wednesday if she can squeeze me in on the schedule which she always manages to do somehow... I'm rarely sick but when I am, she gives her pastor priority. I appreciate her for that and so much more.
I just can't keep feeling this way. I have been afraid to deal with this fully before Thursday -- I have to leave first thing that morning to speak at a conference in Orlando...the "Inspire" conference for women. I don't want anything to stand in the way of that. So why worry? Well, let's put it this way, because Rosemay is an excellent doctor. I know, I know that sounds totally weird. But here's the deal. I have only been seriously ill here once while living in Tampa, and what did she do? Basically sentenced me to a hospital bed ...for four days. I mean, she gave me no choice...she ordered me there. And there I stayed until she got to the bottom of my problem. Rosemay is a family doctor, also an internist. She'll find out what's wrong with you, whatever she has to do. After just 24 hours, I was sick of laying in the hospital, especially without my briefcase and my computer. :-) I said, "do I really have to stay here? Please, just release me...I have so much to do. She kept me there a few days. Then, I had to preach on Sat. She didn't want me to. I needed an operation asap. She finally agreed that if I would not eat a thing on Sat., only clear liquids, and take the medication she gave me, she'd allow it and wait til' Monday to operate. I obeyed. Got the operation Monday and all was well. But Rosemay...she's one tough cookie. If she didn't like what she saw, she'd keep me home from Orlando in a New York minute!!!
Rosemay doesn't play around. If she has an inkling that anything is wrong, she acts on it big time. As well she should, that's why she's the doc.
So here's the deal, I think I'm going to go see her Wed. and if I need some tests, set some up for Monday if possible.
I need to be sick like I need to bang my head against a wall. I have so much going on all the time. And to me nothing is more important than my family and the Kingdom. I try to ignore being sick. I rarely am, but when I am I try to just believe God to touch me and keep going. I truly believe in God's healing power. If that same spirit that raised Christ from the dead dwells in us...what happens? He will quicken our bodies, that's what the Word says, and I believe it. So I just quote that and move on. Sometimes that becomes difficult to just keep going if my prayer is not answered right away. And at times I need to use wisdom and in addition to quoting and praying, I need to make an appt. with Rosemay.
And something I'm learning through this week is that I need to RELAX more, not just my body but my mind...GIVE GOD THE CHURCH COMPLETELY (it's His anyway) and stop worrying so much about it, go to bed at a decent hour 99% of the time, stop answering work e-mails on my day off, take a day off once a week no matter what, make people respect my boundaries more, LET GO of things I can't control. There really IS a purpose to why I have felt bad the past week - for this if nothing else. More than anything I need to DEPEND ON GOD MORE . I've gotten so much better in the past eight years or so. Back about eight years ago I made a major change, but my work hours big time...(I still work a lot, but no where near what I used to - I was so far out of balance eight years ago, it was ridiculous. I needed an overhaul, and I got one. I started working a sane amount of hours, taking a day off, etc. Still even with that- I sometimes slip back and allow myself to skip a day off one week or a few weeks in a row because of pressing issues I justify it. Or, I allow people to cross my boundaries too much and don't take up for myself enough. I'm learning more about that. This past week is bringing me to a new understanding of what I need to do to make things better - a new level. Not work harder - but SMARTER. Be what I need to be even more by taking yet even better care of me to be the best for my husband, my family, my church, and everybody else.
Thank you, those of you friends reading, for continuing to pray for me. Specifically please pray for healing for me, and...for an incredible move of God at the Inspire Conference!!! I want to actually enjoy what God is doing, and not be sick anymore. The devil is such a liar, isn't he? I hate him.
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